Happy 18th Birthday to my wonderful and favorite son.(that always kills him since he is my only son). I wonder why kids never think mom is funny? I crack myself up all the time. Anyhoo, no resolutions to lose weight for the first time in 20 years. Why you ask? Because I am doing it and have no doubt it will continue. I do want to treat people better this year. But it's so frickin hard when there are so many frickin assholes out there. (Just joking) See I am funny.
Now one thing I truly want to happen is lose the depression. I miss my parents so much, it kills me daily. The thing is its been a few years and it still feels like yesterday. My parents and I were so close, after my mom passed, I was in shock for years it seemed. I then started helping take care of my dad, had him over all the time. He only lived about 10 minutes from me. I think when he passed I lost a little of myself. You see, I found them both when they passed and I re-live it all the time. Don't tell me to get therapy, tried that, no success. Meds ya I am on it, you know what, it doesn't really help. Truthfully, I don't think its odd that someone misses the people they love for the rest of your life. I mean I am viable, I still go to work, still live daily. Just miss them terribly. Feel lonely a lot.
Sorry for the downer post. Don't know what got in me.
Well today will be fun, slot machines here I come baby! Wahooo