Sorry dear friends

I was working on some glitches and needed to close the site for a bit. I think all is ok now.

This weekend was fun. I went to "Bates nut farm," or as I like to call it  "Nates but farm". Ya, I'm a dork. Went with my daughter, her roommate and her little son. Really had a great time. Weather was awesome. WE are having 80 degree weather. Wow. But, I do now worry about wild fires. I bet Betty is worried too, she gets some doozies up there. I am always "do you smell smoke" " I think I smell smoke". Yikes.  I think I could safely call this PTSD. I have to keep from freaking out. 

Halloween tonight an Monday night football with "My Chargers".. But I have class tonight. I think I am just going to check in and get my worksheet and leave. I am not sure though, but hmmmm.

Life

After a while you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand, and chaining a soul.
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning,
and company doesn't always mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts,
and presents aren't promises.
And you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead,
with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build all your roads on today,
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans,
and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns
if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure.
that you really are strong.
And you really do have worth.
And you learn and you learn,
with every goodbye you learn

lolol

Time flies

Yikes, I cant believe it has been a week. This weekend I went to my mom and dads house to clean and yard work and such. A couple of my brothers were there and their wives. It was a lot of work, and I gotta tell ya, my son kicked bootie, he worked his butt off. God bless that boy. I also, picked up my parents ashes. My beautiful daughter wants them.  She loved(s) them so much. God bless that girl.  Yes, I love my kids to the depths of my soul.

My Reiki class is going great.  Work sucks, short staffed again for almost two weeks. Jobs are so hard to get now, and my jobs are awesome, yet people want to risk losing them. I just dont get it.

Diet wasn't so good this weekend. Ok, just Saturday working at the house. I drank a lot of crystal light, but not much else.

I have an ear infection, this is a chronic thing I get, usually associated with my allergies. At work I am like "talk to my right ear please" lol. My left has drops and a Cotton ball in it.

Sunday, I grilled some chicken tenders on the BBQ and roasted some veggies, cauliflower, Brussel sprouts, onion, carrots. OMG it was so yummy. I have chicken tenders left over for this week. I love chicken tenders, they are small cuts of chicken breast and they cook in minutes. Pure protein baby!

I will try to find more interesting things to blog about. I am going to a place this weekend called "Bates nut farm". Should be fun, and frickin packed to the max. One of my co-workers said she went up last weekend and there had to be over 1000 peeps there. Yikes, It is just a farm that has pumpkins and a market selling nuts (duh) and dried fruit and stuff. But, my daughters room mate wants to take her little boy there. He will like it. It is about an hour drive there tho.

Can I hear "Exhausted"

Man, short staffed and in the midst of packing and moving and I come home exhausted. Headache and knee aches. I think I am over doing it on the power walks. I am not paying attention cause my mind is stressed and I think I might be pushing myself to hard. Oh well, I do enjoy my walks, so I will take a little meds for pain and keep going.  Last night I came home, fed dogs, birds and me. Diced a ton of veggies for tomorrow(today) and threw it in the crockpot with boneless skinless chicken. Gonna make a chicken veggie soup. Then vacuumed and did laundry. My dear son did a bit of shopping for me, while I did the rest. Ate my salad and drank my shake and by 6:30 I was pooped. I got home about 4:00, so I did this in 2 hours.

Good news I am really enjoying being on this diet with my son, he has lost 7lbs in one week. Really keeps me motivated.  After my stomach flu loss of weight, it did come back but it is gone again. Sweet!

Still having some issues with commenting on other web sites. But I am there reading them, laughing and agreeing with what peeps having written. Wish I could comment. Oh well.

Headache ville

I woke up with a big headache, ugh. It is probably the weather. I have allergies. But, it also put me in a bummer mood.  Oh well I will get over it. I have to, my admin assist texted me that she is sick and wont be in. (LOL it's Monday).

Saturday I went to this Rock and Gem show which my brother puts together once a year and he asked that I stop by. So, of course I did since pretty soon he is moving to Ohio. So I sneak up on him and he turns around and say "Oh no !". Haha...right? Today I stop off at my daughters place of work to drop off her sunglasses. I walk thru her door and she said"Oh no" . I know both were joking, but to have two people say that to me within 48 hours really hurt my feelings.  I know, I am way to sensitive.


Saturday night my daughter and I went to the Gaslamp Haunted Hotel. It was so short maybe 15-20 minutes long. But, I laughed the whole time. My daughter screamed a couple of times. But all-in-all it really wasnt scary. It was fun. Afterwards we walk out and right next door was a restaurant. I asked my daughter if she wanted to get a drink cause we were pretty warm. So we went in, I had a diet pepsi. It turns out it was Hooters. LOL, I never dreamed I would be in a Hooters. So we ordered wings to share, of course and I ordered a tray of carrots and celery sticks. I ate them all, I had a couple of the boneless wings and you know what, they are the best I ever had. Darn who knew? The ship must have also come in, cause there sure were a lot of the military boys there. (Such cuties).  But I really enjoyed spending the evening with my daughter it was great fun.

Weekend and Haunted house

Yippee, my daughter and I are going downtown tomorrow night(Gaslamp district) to the haunted hotel... Sweet. I bought tickets on line, I purchased the fast track, so we don't have to wait in line. I have never been to this one and I hear it is great!!!. My son did not want to go.

Weather is going to be so much better(Yeah Betty!) 
I am bushed tho, work has been hard and stressful. I feel like I could sleep for a week.

I went to the Optometrist this week, one to get new glasses and two, because I keep getting spots in my vision. Especially while looking at the computer. It just started this week, at first I thought it might be my eyelashes, then maybe puffy eyes. But, it turns out to be vitreous floaters. I actually had my suspicions. I use to work for some Ophthalmologist.  He said that I have it in both eyes and there isn't really anything to do about. If it gets worse than to see him again. I googled it and it said it was rather common, and the symptoms usually go away. (Fingers crossed)... It really does suck to get old.(My dad use to always say that)

Happy Anniversary to meeeeeeeee

Happy Anniversary to meeeeeeeee. Yeah, I did it one whole year and 70 lbs gone. You know how I am going to celebrate it.........(wait for it.....))))))) I am going to do it again for another year.. Woot Woot Hip hip hooray.  Ok, that isnt exactly a surprise. I still want to lose another 70 lbs. But, I am still jazzed that I changed my life and eating healthy and exercising every day is part of my life. With my son doing it, it is like a new start for me. I am kinda excited. I am going today and buy more shakes. I love my HMR shakes, they are full of protein and yummy stuff.  My son loves them too, so I need more. Both my son and I love veggies so that also makes it easier. I asked him last night, when the weather cools, (right now it is 104 degrees) we should start walking at night. I still do my lunch hour walk, but the added walk would certainly help me. Of course he was excited (NOT). What ?!  I dont want to walk with my mom......(He's 18years old)Ugh kids.

 I said, hey, we will have our ipods and we dont even have to talk or act like we know each other... he will think about it. So, next week we will walk. Monday and Wednesday are out, but Tues, Thursday and Friday we can do it. Even if it is just for an hour.....

Yikes tomorrow is my 1 year

Well tomorrow will be my one year anniversary to my life change. I am so grateful for losing the 70(+) lbs. At times I thought it was too hard, but now I realize that it had to be. If it was easy, than I would have failed. But, I have really grown into a stronger person because of it. In fact I feel like a completely different person. My spirit is stronger, my faith is stronger and I have met some really wonderful and strong people in my journey.

In other news, yikes is this really Fall? Because it is going to be in the 100's. Even on the coast in will be in the 90's. And to top it off, it is a Santa Ana...(Devil winds). Gosh the next few days we have a red flag warning.(Fire season).  We usually get our big wildfires in October and here we are in October.

The fun thing is my son wants to start doing the HMR diet with me. So, yeah!!!! A partner in crime. LOL(dont say anything Ash about this)


This picture below, no hidden message. Just thought it was so cute.

Quiet weekend

TOM finally came on Friday. (What a jerk) This weekend was quiet. The weather was warm and the allergies are flaring. Did my shopping, got a great deal on my POPs and cauliflower. POP chips were BOGO (Sweet) and cauliflower heads were 88 cents each. Yippee, I bought 5. I will be eating cauliflower for a while. Yum. 

Tonight is my Reiki class again. Yippee. I can't wait. My one concern is the class is on Halloween. I will not get home til 8:30. In our area, trick N treaters usually stop by 8:00. So, my boy will have to stay home and give out treats. Or, I might not go to class. We will see what happens.

Torani's

This is Torani's. It is sugar free syrup that I add to my Iced Tea. I usually use Mango and Peach. Makes my Iced tea amazing. Some flavor such as chocolate and Irish cram is added to coffee's. It has been a diet saver for me. I also add it to my HMR shakes. Yum!!!!

Shopping list

My fridge is just about bare of my foods.  My  shopping list
1) Grapes
2) Cauliflower
3) Egg whites
4) Bagel thins
5) Sugar Free Torani
6) Chicken breast
7) Mushrooms
8) Zucchini
9) Spag squash
10) laughing cow cheese
11) Banana
12) sweet potato
13) carrots
14) baby bells
15) jerky
hmmmm anyone think of anything else?

Me Me Me Me Me

Why is it we always put ourselves last. We want everyone else to be happy, and we forget about ourselves.
I have put other's happiness in front of mine, sometimes even to the point of me being unhappy because of it. Why is it that it always seems to me that no one else is putting my happiness first.  Geez, I even feel guilty if I think of putting me first. So much so, that I feel it is wrong of me to even think of me. (Does that even make sense?)  Is it so wrong to want to be happy?  Do we ever find true happiness or is it just a myth?(At least while we are on this earth). 

Well when it rains it pours eh?

I received an email from my aunt in England letting me know that my aunt Josie has passed away. I am not sure if I mentioned this before, but except for my brothers, all my family lives in the UK. So I dont get to see them often. Ugh.

It is suppose to rain today by the way, so yesterday I bought a poncho to walk in at lunch. I can just image what I will look like. LOL  Yesterday I went to the doctors to get a shingles shot, but since I haven't had a period in two months, they gave me a pregnancy test, (oh please I am 51 years old) but the shingles is a live vaccine so they wanted to be safe. Well, I'll be darned I wasn't pregnant. lol. But they want to wait on the shot. Yeah!!!!!

Last month I signed up to take a class at a local adult school. Last night was my first day. It was a Reiki workshop. Reiki is a light-touch, energy-based healing practice. Some may poohaha on this, but I am very spiritual and I believe in this. The class was brilliant. I am in love with Reiki.  I told my son and my coworkers that I will need to practice on them. My son is "ah no way"  My coworkers are all "sweeeeeeet free massages".

What a terrible weekend

What a terrible weekend food wise. I have not had a weekend like this in one year. I didnt gain any weight, but I feel like crap for letting my emotions get the best of me. I made an error on my last post, I dont know where 42 years came from, it is 51 nearly 52 years. Actually, I was thinking about this all night wondering where did 42 years come from. My mind is not here.  Saturday, I had two slices of pizza(Domino's) for dinner, terrible pizza and two chicken dogs for lunch. I dont even like hot dogs.  Sunday I did better, I had a whole head of romaine with chicken breast meat on it. I use light blue cheese dressing,(30 cal/2 Tbls) not much.. But, I feel like a fool. I thought after a year of changing my life, I was so passed emotional eating. But apparently I haven't.

Sunday and no football

I cant believe they are blacking out our football game. Bummer.  Well this has been a bit tough week.  We sold my parents home. Apparently just on Sunday alone we had 3 offers submitted. I know it has to be done. but it is breaking my heart and to top it off my daughters too. She is so unhappy. I can understand, we have had this house for 42 years. It was our soft place to fall. But, I just cant buy it. We bought my mother-in-laws house when she passed away and my daughter lives in that house. But my parents house needs a lot or remodeling and repairs. Plus, deep in my heart I always have dreamed about moving to a small town. San Diego, is so big. So much traffic, so much crime and so expensive. I mean it is beautiful, I was born and raised here. But my dream is most likely just a dream. Its funny, first you don't leave because of your parents, then your husband and then your kids. I wondered if my life will ever be for me. I really don't see it. But, it must be Gods plan. I know some day he will have me in heaven. So, perhaps that is my future?