Roasted Veggies

Ok, this wasn't all for me...or was it? My dog Dakota better stay close to me for sure.

Mark my words!!!

I will lose this 10 lbs I gained over the holiday. I cant believe I let myself go like that. What a dope. I have been walking at lunch and power drinking the water. I am slowly getting back to my normal self controlled person. Wow, for a year, I was brilliant. Then came the holidays and bam!  I kept telling myself oh a little of this wont hurt, or last Christmas I didn't have anything bad so I deserve this... Ya right.

Today, I walked for 90 minutes straight as fast as my fat little legs could go. Tomorrow the kids have late school, they wont get home til 10pm or later. So, beside my lunch walk, I am going to the gym.

Its sucks, cause I feel just as fat now as I did 65 lbs ago. Thats what 10 lbs can do to you. All those times looking in the mirror and thinking wow, I am beginning to like the way I look, now 10 lbs later I look in the mirror and see that 300+ lb person again.

My pants feel tighter and I am back to being self-conscious again. This weekend I went shopping and bought a lot of veggies and chicken tenders. Tonight I am going to roast eggplant, zucchini, peppers, onions and brussel sprouts. YUMMMMMM. Of course, this will give me gas to no end. So the dog is going to have be by me so I can blame her. :)

I have a confession to make.

When I posted this picture on the 20th. I had a hidden message in it. It only pertained to me and I wasnt really ready to talk about it.

On the 18th, a boy that my son went to school with from Kindergarten thru High School died. Once they started HS they each went their own way. My son met new friends via the Football sport. My son and daughter went to school from K- thru HS with the same group of kids. It is a neighborhood elementary/Jr High combined and then most moved on to to the same High school. So sometimes I still see these kids as the little ones that I remember back when.

Well, this young man chose a bad path to follow. He overdosed on the 18th. My son told me that he really had been on the wrong path all thru HS. I just didnt know. His service was Saturday. It has me stumped for some reason on how we decide which path to take and where it will lead us. His father posted on Facebook on the 18th that he just lost his only son.  I just sobbed, for but the Grace of God that could have been me.

I can understand why

Play Begins Today At Farmers Insurance Open

Golf Tournament Will Be Played At Torrey Pines North, South Courses

Yes, I can understand why they want to have this huge Golf tournament here. But it is right by where I work and traffic SUCKSSSSSSSS now.  Ok, next week will be better. My rant is over (for now).

Hump day

Work has been absolutely crazy, working at an Academic Medial Center has so many issues that don't even pertain to patients. It is crazy, or I am crazy for being here since 1981. I have a buddy who does a lot of what I do and this am we talked and it sure helped to vent to each other.
I brought my egg white and bagel thins for breakfast. It was really good and will start me off just right. I am one of those peeps that believes in a good breakfast, on work days. Weekends I never eat breakfast, and I am fine...I would rather sleep than eat.

I only missed Monday on my 60 minute walk due to rain, but really because I left early. My head was killing me, or work was! Otherwise I have been walking each day, and each day the weather is getting warmer. So it is really nice.

In March my daughter has this little birthday(hers) vacation planned. We are going to hit LA and Hollywood and also do a paranormal tour on the Queen Mary and we are going to spend the night also on the Queen. Sounds fun and just what I need, a little get away. It is for about 4-5 days.

Whats a gal to do??

Ok, this just sucks. What a way to start my Monday... TOM came, I didnt know til I made it to work. I didnt bring a thing. Usually I am well stocked for emergencies. But, I switched my purse a few weeks ago. I didnt stock my purse....CRAP,.. I use the restroom and sure enough they have a machine for supplies. Thank you sweet Jesus. I put my quarter in and NOTHING. What the heck.... I text my buddy who is on her way to work and she said she might have something.  The gift shop at work does have them, but it is a 10 minute outdoor walk, which is ok..but its fricking raining.. Good grief!   I should just go home crawl into bed and call it a day... No I wont, I dont do things like that. But heaven help me that sounds so good!

I will need to see if my buddy has something and then at 9:00 I will walk in the rain and go to the gift shop.
My day has to get better right?!!!!

Which path to choose

Sometimes I feel like this. Never knowing which path to chose. I saw this picture and it got me wondering.
Life can be such a struggle.

Wow, I was tagged!

Thanks Margene( http://believingitspossible.blogspot.com/2012/01/tag-youre-it.html ), I really enjoyed reading your answers. Also, for people who need inspiration, you really need to read her blog. It is brilliant.

Here are the questions I need to answer:

• What would be the greatest piece of advice you would give someone at the beginning of their weight loss journey? Patience and that it is all mental. It is not a race, but a life change.
• What is your biggest fear in life? Not being with my children.
• What or who has inspired you the most? Dont blush, but it really is Margene.
• If you had $1000. right now with no strings attached - what would you do with it?  I am so boring, I would put it in the bank.
• If you could do anything you wanted to one day what would it be?  Go to Disneyland. No really, I would!
• Do you have a BFF and if so - how long have you been friends?  My BFF is my daughter. She gets me!
• What does friendship mean to you?  Everything
• What is your favorite healthy food(s)?  Brussel sprouts, cauliflower, Seafood.
• What is your favorite exercise or activity?  Walking
• How do you stay motivated?  Prayer
• Where do you want to be next year at this time. 60 lbs lighter.

January 16th

Happy Birthday to the most wonderful man that ever lived. My dad. This really was the most wonderful and caring and loving man that ever lived. When I would call him, which was all the time, but each time it was like it was the first time in years. Seriously he was always happy to hear from me. It is such an amazing feeling knowing that there was someone who truly loved you from the bottom of their heart. I could do no wrong in his eyes. He never judged me. I was perfect to him. I think of him daily, I have his picture by my bed so I say goodnight to him every night.

Dad I love you, until I see you again, Hugs! Give mom a big ole hug and kiss too!

Whoa what a long week

It usually is after a vacation. But it didnt help that I was sick and my assist called out for 2 days(again). Then work got frickin hard. The suits want us to move one of our rooms to another room. Ok, fine, but they want it now. As in yesterday. What is wrong with them. We are a medical office and we cant just stop what we are doing and move. Have you ever noticed that the people in charge(Who make the BIG bucks) dont know what the hell they are doing? Seriously, how do these people get these jobs. I realize to them it is all about the money. But to us, the actual medical peeps, its about the patients. I have two meetings this AM, ugh!

Ok, stick a fork in me, I am done. :)

But on a good note, my diet is going great. I am starting to lose some of the weight I gained. I am also getting my walks in, even though I dont always get my lunch break. It is a good job that my lunch is always ready for me. I drink my shakes that I make the night before and freeze.

But the best news is that it is a 3 day weekend. Thank you Martin Luther King Jr!

Yikes back to work.

Ok, my first day back, still feeling under the weather, and someone called out sick.(Surprise? no!).
Crazy as all get out. But, I will manage.


This weekend, I felt like soup, so I cooked up some ground turkey, sauteed it with onion, carrots and celery. Then I threw it in the crockpot with shredded cabbage and mushrooms, canned tomatoes and added low sodium chicken broth. I added my salt and pepper, lots of pepper and garlic and onion powder and bay leafs.


It cooked all day, then I added some chickpeas to it. My son ate it and said it was the best soup he had ever had in his life. Say what! Yeah baby, that made my day. I loved it too, but I will eat anything with veggies. So to hear him say THAT was just awesome.


I bought a water fall for my desk, you know the little ones that have little rocks and it suppose to be soothing. I really like it but, I kinda have to tinkle more?!... Granted I do drink a lot, water and diet coke and then of course my HMR shakes. But the sound of water kinda of does make me tinkle more....oh well, I will get use to it.


Since, I have been a bit sick, I went for a small walk today. I am sure I will be very tired when I get home today. But, thats ok, I can go to bed early if need be.  I miss my dog Dakota, she has been by my side for the last two weeks. She follows me and sleeps by me. If I am in one room of the house and move to another, she will follow me, then lay down. If I move to another room, she gets up follows me and then lays down there.

Vacation time is amazing

The weather has been just brilliant really. 80-90 degrees and peaceful. I have enjoyed my time off and now I am sick. Of course, right in time for work. When we went to Seaworld there were a couple of people I was near, touristy type(no offense to them) who you could tell were sick. I remember walking by them and thinking "man I hope I dont get sick". Well I did, boo hiss hiss. But, I will be ok. I just made a pitcher of tea and I will take it easy from now until Monday. Yesterday, my son, daughter and I went to the Indian casino. It is the first time since they remodeled. It has a hotel, golf course and was beautiful. We were there 6 hours. It was fun, I didnt lose any money, my daughter kicked bootie and won and my son was winning, but lost it. LOL. But, it was fun, but for me, 6 hours is way too long.  The smoke just killed me. When we first got there, it was quiet and not crowded, so I didnt notice the smoke, but by evening it got very crowded and smokey. By the time we left, I was coughing my head off.

All the food in the food court was really low priced, almost Vegas low really.
My daughter and I went to the buffet there, it was amazing. They have it separated by category. Mexican, Italian, Mongolian, and Seafood and BBQ, sushi, desserts, salads bar, dim sum and so much more. I went straight to the seafood. I had the Salmon and shrimp. It was great. I loved the Salmon especially.
I love seafood, in fact I took some Cod out for dinner tonight. I think I will broil it and have a salad with it. YUM!

Happy Birthday

Happy 19th birthday to my baby, Love you Travis!