The physician called me and the pathology report states benign. Thank you Lord.
Now my brothers tumor was reported 3x as benign then came back as inoperable cancer. But this is not my brothers tumor and I am holding faith that after the surgery it will still be all benign.
I feel like a new woman. The trial is over and the path report came back in my favor. One thing I thought about while I was facing my mortality was how are my kids going to remember me. And all I could think about was the regret for not getting all my weight off and the kids remembering me as fat. I know they would remember the love I had for them, but when looking at picture they would see a fat mom. I feel like I have been given a second chance. I am going to run with it. I am changing my life as I know it. I am going to lose all the weight, I am going to become healthier and become a better person.
For the colonoscopy I pretty much couldnt eat for nearly 48 hrs and you know what it didnt kill me. Ironically I wasnt even hungry. I could drink my fluids and I survived. So, if I can do that, who knows what I can do when I set my mind to it. It won't be easy, but it will be worth it.
From the depths of my heart I cant thank you all enough. My friends Betty, Margene, Julie and my good friend Allan and all his followers . What truly kind people. They didnt even know me, but came and wished me well and sent prayers and positive thoughts. I am so touched by the kindness I received and am blessed with knowing some wonderful and good people. God Bless you all.