Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Its been awhile for sure.

I met with my primary family doctor. She explained the surgery for me a bit. She did prepare me that the surgery is fairly intense and that there is still a slight(She didn't add slight) that they might find cancerous cells in the pathology after surgery. She is completing my disability forms, she put me out until 2/1/13. She put it out there in case chemo would be needed. She really is sweet. She told me
"things will get better, just not today".  Surprisingly it did make me feel better.

 I have been going to work to put all my little ducks in a row(as in staffing). I am the manager and Executive Assistant for the Director. I have been told before that I am his right hand.  I always laugh and say uh no I dont do that...Sorry mind in gutter. I actual work with his wife, she is the assistant Director. I cant leave them hanging they really do rely on me. I do try to make their job easier. They have a stressful job. The more I can do for them the more the have time to focus on their patients.

Friday, I meet the surgeon. I am feeling extremely anxious.  I have been going to the gym everyday and eating good. Really need to get in tip top shape.  I know after my gall bladder surgery, I was walking right from the gurney to my bed and all night. I was back at the gym 7 days later.

I know it wont be like that as this surgery is more severe, but I have high hopes. Hey my dear friend Allan, keep up the good post and kick butt attitude. I read it daily and it helps me stay focus on the gym and what I must do. This is more than just for weight loss but for my life buddy.

I have been really tuning into my spiritual side and talking with God a lot.  I am really going to need him and I want him to know that. Sometimes, I get brief panic attacks, and I ask him to send calming light to me. It helps beleive me.

I will let you know what the surgeon says. I hear he is exceptionally good looking. Hmmm, maybe it's time for a waxing.?? I think so. : )


downsizers said...

It's natural to be afraid of the unknown. "Thy vitalizing energy floods my whole consciousness, and I am healed" is an affirmation that brings me closer to God and more aware of His spirit within me. The mind is a powerful thing - use it to claim healing for yourself. Concentrate on the area of the surgery and focus on healing it. I pray for peace upon you, Gracie.

That corgi :) said...

Oh Gracie!! I'm here for you, honestly, bring you guys a meal, anything, you let me know. Keeping you in my prayers.

Remember this didn't catch God by surprise; why he is allowing it, I'm not sure, but he will walk alongside you the whole way and won't ever let you go.

And I do appreciate your sense of responsibility for work, but you take care of yourself and your family as first priorities; they (work) will do relatively fine without you; you just concentrate on what you need to do to get better and stay better

I'm an email away (lv2trnscrb@aol.com) PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF THERE IS ANYTHING I CAN DO!!


Mom to the Fourth Power said...

I will keep you in my prayers as well... that you can feel at peace and calmness. I hope your meeting on Friday goes well. Think good thoughts. You are not alone, girl!! :)

Much love,

AlmostGastricBypass said...

Wax, thats the trick... You will prevail, and email if we can help !!

Julie said...

Prayers and more prayers Gracie. I'm sending them your way.
Do keep us posted as you can and keep taking good care of yourself.
I can't imagine the feelings of fright you are having but take strength that the Lord is taking care of you.
Blessings my friend!