I met with my primary family doctor. She explained the surgery for me a bit. She did prepare me that the surgery is fairly intense and that there is still a slight(She didn't add slight) that they might find cancerous cells in the pathology after surgery. She is completing my disability forms, she put me out until 2/1/13. She put it out there in case chemo would be needed. She really is sweet. She told me
"things will get better, just not today". Surprisingly it did make me feel better.
I have been going to work to put all my little ducks in a row(as in staffing). I am the manager and Executive Assistant for the Director. I have been told before that I am his right hand. I always laugh and say uh no I dont do that...Sorry mind in gutter. I actual work with his wife, she is the assistant Director. I cant leave them hanging they really do rely on me. I do try to make their job easier. They have a stressful job. The more I can do for them the more the have time to focus on their patients.
Friday, I meet the surgeon. I am feeling extremely anxious. I have been going to the gym everyday and eating good. Really need to get in tip top shape. I know after my gall bladder surgery, I was walking right from the gurney to my bed and all night. I was back at the gym 7 days later.
I know it wont be like that as this surgery is more severe, but I have high hopes. Hey my dear friend Allan, keep up the good post and kick butt attitude. I read it daily and it helps me stay focus on the gym and what I must do. This is more than just for weight loss but for my life buddy.
I have been really tuning into my spiritual side and talking with God a lot. I am really going to need him and I want him to know that. Sometimes, I get brief panic attacks, and I ask him to send calming light to me. It helps beleive me.
I will let you know what the surgeon says. I hear he is exceptionally good looking. Hmmm, maybe it's time for a waxing.?? I think so. : )