Monday, July 29, 2013

Back to work

Well it has been a long 6 weeks of hell for me. But, today I am back to work with a new focus on life. I am so glad to be back to work.

About a week after my surgery, I went to my medium group and she read a few things that related to me. One, was about suicide. I  remember first shock that she said it exactly to a T. I also was a little pissed off that spirit was tattling on me. Isn't that silly. But, I was angry for about a week, then I started to feel guilty. Then suddenly I realized what an ass I was for even going to that direction. I did a lot of thinking those six weeks. I first had the fatal accident issue, then my 3 surgeries in 2.5 years. Then the diagnosis, and eventual loss of my brother. I realized I made it through all of this and I know I could only have done it with Gods help. I started to feel more inner peace.

I really want to change my life around and do right with the Lord, spirit, myself and family. And I think I can do it.

7 comments:

Julie said...

You can and you will Gracie. Life is so very, very hard at times but one day at a time and you will be stronger and so much better for it all. Lean on the Lord, he's strong enough to carry us all. Pray and sing and look to a bright and wonderful day.
Take care Gracie. Blessings!!

Vicki Maheu said...

I'll be be praying for you, its sounds like you've had a very tough time of it lately.

Mom to the Fourth Power said...

Hi Gracie!! I'm so sorry I've been MIA for a while, and I'm so sorry for all you've been going through. :( I will have you in my prayers too. You've had so much on your plate. But you are strong, and you know where and WHO you get your strength from and that you CAN overcome all things! You are amazing!!

Take care & God Bless...
~Margene

Julie said...

Just checking in Gracie to see how your doing. Life is such a challenge at times.
Keep your chin up and I love that it's now your time to take care of you. You go girl. My time will come again but right now it's hard enough putting one foot in front of the other.
Blessings!!

Julie said...

Just checking in on your Gracie. What to know how things are going and how you're doing.
Hope that life is going good. It's hectic here but normal. That one foot in front of the other is an always thing. I would so love to crawl into a corner and hide.
Blessings my friend!!

Julie said...

Okay Gracie, where are you? Are you okay? I sure do hope so.
Merry Christmas Gracie.
Blessings!!

Julie said...

Hey Gracie. Just checking in so you know I'm thinking about you. I hope that life is moving along well for you. Take care of yourself.
Blessings my friend!!