Monday and a new week

Well, I am doing better, I think maybe I still have a sinus infection. I dont know ,I will see. If I do, I will get me a z-pak. I went to the gym yesterday and it felt good, I  did over 1.5 miles on the treadmill and the weight equipment. We did get a lot of rain, but I think its over so I will go for a walk at lunch. Trying to get back to normal. Who knew that my normal would include exercise? LOL certainly not me.

You know, I read a lot of the blogs out there on weightloss. I have noticed several who post their menu for the day. I am not sure, it could just be me. BUT the calories just don't seem to add up. I know when I look at their food. It seems like the calories would be or should be higher than listed. I could be wrong.  I have noticed that some put cheese on their salads and mark that as > or less than what I think. Some of these items in a salad are very high in fat and calories. I just think that they are kidding themselves with the calorie count. I even see fast food listed as lunch items. Geez, I haven't had fast food since Oct. I just think that eating fast food on your diet is crazy hard. They have so many hidden calories.  When I first was looking at these I would wonder how they could eat that, I was a little shocked really.  I did a little research(very little, a google here and a google there) but it doesn't seem possible. I guess they are only hurting themselves but when you claim to be working out a lot and on this low calorie diet and are not being truthful it will come back to you. Especially in the long run. In order to keep weight off we need to change our lifestyle not just for the short term diet but for a long healthy life and keep the weight off. Maybe I am just rambling on and on. Oh well it was just something I noticed. Hey more power to ya. I couldn't eat fast food and lose weight but that's just me.

Other news, my DD got a new puppy. She has one dog a yellow lab and she is a wonderful dog. Probably the sweetest dog I ever met. Now she got a little choc lab. He is really sweet. She sends me a text pix. I called her and said "now what have you done". She said congratulations you have a new grandson. LOL  He really is sweet and OMG that puppy smell can make you melt. Really a mellow guy so far. Her yellow lab is like "oh hell no". She is use to being the baby and now he shows up. I actually think he will grow on her. He seems to just love her. Cute Cute Cute.

Sunday and not so sunny

Well, just weighed in for Allan I was down 2 lbs was actually more but Allan, wants us to round it off so I went with the lower weight. Why you ask. Funny thing, I don't think I earned the extra bit. No exercise, lower water intake that I should.  But, I have showered, got dressed and I am going to the gym today. Yeah me! I actually am feeling better. After reviewing my post from the last few days. I was such a whiner. Geez you think I was a dude. (No offense Allan and Rick). But geez, could I have whined anymore? I was feeling down in the dumps, with the pending surgery then getting sick ugh. But that still is no reason to whine. Man, I hope I don't get sick again for  a long while. I might lose the few followers I have. Lord knows I was getting sick of myself.  But this next week I cant wait to kick butt on my diet and exercise.  Of course, karma is a (you know). Now the husband is sick. Oh brother !
Of course, that doesn't stop him from fishing. :o

Hey Brett if you are out there... I miss you and hope things are ok. I haven't seen you post for a while and the last one was really sad. Come back...thinking of you !

Saturday and doing better

Yesterday I did go to work until noon. Then went home sick. Damn! I do actually feel better today. Found out that the surgeon's office will call next week. Its weird I am feeling bloated. Not sure, could be the gallbladder issues or maybe TOM is coming to visit, but I think that would be next week. Or it could be that I have not exercised for a week. I know I was going to start walking Monday, but I think I am going to go to the gym tomorrow. Give it a shot. This bug has knocked me out, but I am doing better today, so tomorrow I should be even better, right? The weather here is changing a bit. The last few days have been very warm and really effing dry. Awful, I think it might have been a Santa Ana, which could be the reason I was so sick. People tend to have their allergies go full throttle on Santa Ana's, the dry heat and dry winds tend to wreck havoc on our sinus's.   But better I am getting, still feeling a lot of fatigue, but that too is getting better. I will be so much happier when I am back to normal.

Friday and I am so exhausted

Ok, so I made it to work today. Why? I dont know, but I figured it was Friday and I could make it one day. Right? Well we will see. I am still very sick. But, hopefully with each day I will get better. My goal is to Start walking again on Monday.  I am going to continue drinking the water and of course, I am going to stay on the diet. No chances of gallbladder attacks. I will call today to find out on my status of seeing a surgeon. I think Jacqui is right, I shouldn't wait on the surgery. I think I was just worn out and not thinking it thru. As soon as I am better and  without a cough I will start the process. Well if I think of anything else. I'll come back to post.

What day is it?

OMG, I have been home in bed for two days. My son's cold(thank you son) is knocking me out. I have missed work for two days which is very unusual for me. I rarely miss work. As I am typing this, I am coughing, my nose is nonstop running and the dog is snoring her but off. At least my fever is gone. I hope to be back to work tomorrow. Still no word from the surgeon. Actually, I was thinking about postponing the surgery til spring. I figure I need to watch what I eat, drink a lot of water. I might not get anymore attacks.  I have had days now without exercising and it is wearing on me emotionally. I feel like I am letting myself down. But, I need to get better.  I went to my weigh in Tuesday night, lost 2.5 lbs. So they have me at 49 lb loss. Which is awesome. I know the difference is because I am  weighing at night for the clinic and AM on Sunday for Allan. . I haven't weighed myself since I have been sick. Don't think I have lost, since I am not working out at all. I really miss that. I was in the zone.lol. When I have lost 50 lbs according to the weight clinic they will take my picture again and my measurements. I know that the exercising has helped so much with my weight loss. Its is the inches that are making my pants baggy also.

OMG I feel like crap

Ok, I have caught my sons cold. Yuck, I feel like crap. I have fever, runny nose,sore throat waaagh :(.
I know I wont be able to have surgery until I am feeling better. I am still waiting for the consult with the surgeon. But I assume I will need to be healthy before surgery. My son has a cough, and if I get that , it would like hell to be coughing after having an organ removed. AAAAAgh. 

Well tonight is my weigh in and class. I have not been on  my diet properly since all this happened. Of course, I didnt eat anything bad or that would give me another attack. But, I haven't been working out like I usually do. Not even my walks at lunch. I will be glad when all of this is over and I can get back to normal. I have been pushing to get water in, but I have been sleeping anytime I can, so I am not making my min.
Well, hope things get better soon.

You know I was thinking that this gallbladder issue isnt related to fast weight loss, really, it is what I did to myself before the weight loss. I know I never thought about what I ate and how it will affect my body in the long run. Not just being morbidly obese, that was obvious. But to my heart and every other organ. What a fricking fool I was. I guess an alcoholic,smoker and drug abusers also try to ignore what they are doing. I was not much different than these people. All my problems come from what I did to myself. I only have myself to blame. I let myself down. I am not a stupid person by any means, naive yes, stupid not so much. But I did do so  many stupid things in my life and the weight was the biggest. What a fool I am/was and I hope I use this as a learning experience or you can call me stupid. Because if I dont learn from my mistakes than I am the biggest fool ever.

Ok, I keep adding on. You know what is really stupid, I mean really really stupid. I love food that is good for you. I mean I am totally into veggies. God I love them. I love grilled/baked roasted meats and poultry and I am so into seafood. So WTF is wrong with me, why did I do it. Was it pure laziness? Was it pressure from others to eat fastfood? What is really bullshit is that I still crave fastfood. WTF is wrong with me.I really believe my entire problem is/was fast food and just laziness to not work out. Shit I have had a membership to the gym for years. Didnt use it, always said I gonna start or I'm gonna start going back-ya what a kicker. I mean the high I have been getting from the gym is crazy. I do the treadmill for almost 2 miles and I am so proud of myself. It is like a high. I mean it is hard for sure, but I never regret it when I go.  So why didnt I? Ya, many reason, long days at work, tired, need to be with the kids or yadda yadda yadda.
Bullshit reasons.  Why is this all coming to me today. I dont know really. Maybe the fear of the surgery and the unknown got me thinking How the fuck did I get here?

Sunday and sunny skies

Ok, weigh in today for Allen and I'm down 3 lbs. Yippeee. It makes it 50 lbs off since 10/13.

I feel like I am coming down with a cold. Damn that boy of mine. Of course, I find that when my mindset is down such as worrying over gallstones, I am more susceptible to catching a cold or illness.  And I have bee stressing for sure. I think I will go to the gym and watch a football game or two. I am not sure who I am rooting for, but I do have my boy LT still playing.  Laundry is always a given on a weekend. But besides that, I am gonna take it easy and rest up for next week. I have so many meetings next week it sorta puts a damper on my work week. (I hate meetings).

But the weather is perfect here (sorry Allan and anyone else suffering from mother nature). I am going to make some Iced tea, but use decaf bags and enjoy the warm sun today.

I find myself taking our weather for granted sometimes. But when I notice what most people have to deal with, I need to really count my blessings.